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bad jackie
...written on 2003-06-14, @ 3:14 a.m.
I'm not the jealous type . . . but I used to be . . . made me absolutely crazy. . .
but then I realized - what's the point in getting jealous when there's nothing you can do about it?
So I stopped.
And now? Its not the boy who's being bad. I'm afraid sometimes - that will all the stuff I've dealt with before . . . might make me the bad one?
Jackie - rationale #1 : Well, it's okay - its just lunch - right? And he knows I'm seeing somebody too.
Jackie - rationale #2 : It's just cyber sex . . . (and it's not turning me on -_-') - what is he going to do? Type? Bring it on!
Its . . . . nice.
More mature. (Jackie?!? Mature?! NO way?!)
Yeah . . . I'll admit . . . I used to do things and say things just to spite those ex's of mine . . . but you know, nothing came out of it. . . . it was just pointless and useless now . . . looking back.
*You know - they say hindsight is always 20/20!*
Why mature?
Cuz' he doesn't mind me going out with guy friends, or chatting with other "boys" . . . or even phone calls . . . . and you know . . . its nice to be trusted.
I think - half of the reason why I used to cheat on those boys was because I felt like I wanted to beat them at their own game.
I hate to sound all "fem" and stuff . . . but its a known fact that most guys are bound to cheat. So I just went ahead and did it before they did.
I know - its not a valid excuse. I know better now. Maturity . . . comes with a conscience doesn't it?
Also comes with strange feelings of wanting more "home time"
I've been staying in more for the weekends . . . well, there's really nowhere to go . . and nobody to go out with . . .
Right . . . well - I'll confess and say that I like hugging Cleo when I'm watching movies. . .
and its nice to know that there's actually a boy who sincerely likes watching independent films . . . . (not like those usual ones who will watch them with you to get into your panties . . . -_-' )
good lord. what have i gotten myself into this time? i don't know yet . . . but i sure like the way it's going so far . . .